Wow the more I look back, the more I remember my stint into the depths of hell...puberty. When I hit puberty not only did my weight balloon, my self esteem fell. Acne set in and so did the bad hair. UGGG Remember spiral perms? I so did not have the bone structure for that. My teenage years were a nightmare. I was a giant mess of hormones and depression. The more depressed and unhappy I was, the less I went out to were I could be seen by others and therefore be made fun of. The less I went outside, the less activity I got. The less activity I got the heavier I became. The heavier I became the more depressed and unhappy I became. See the cycle? It is not new. I am sure many others have been in this cycle and still are. Some people turn to drugs or alcohol to help numb the unhappiness. I turned to food. I love food. Is that why I eat? I do not think so. I love to keep my mouth and hands busy. If it is not gum or suckers, it is sunflower seeds. I can do small individual candies too- M&M's Skittles, and the like. Anything that causes my hands to interact with my mouth is like a baseball player with a baseball in hand. Kind of like things just fit perfectly. It feels good.